Change. To many it is an scary term, filled with uncertainty. Change reminds us that our lives are muteable, unpredictible, ever progressing in ways that we can't always control. Change puts us in our place so to speak. It is a reminder that we don't always get what we expect or deserve out of life.
Recently my life has changed a lot. I have blogged about it before, so I won't bore you with the mundane details. To be honest, I had been scared about the future. What had become of my life? Surely I wasn't meant for this? Fears, doubts, uncertainty led to a lethargic form of depression. I felt like a miserable failure because my life seemed so out of control; I was nowhere I wanted to be in life.
But even change can change...I was lost but I came to find where I needed and wanted to be; with her. My beautiful, sweet, loving Amanda. Her love has removed my fears, doubts, and uncertainties. You see, change brought to me what I neither expected nor deserved, it brought to me a love so wonderful that I can scarce believe it is real.
My life is soon going to change even further as Amanda and I become man and wife. Talk about change! New home, new family, new job, new town etc. Despite all of this prospective change looming over me I am not facing it in fear and uncertainty. I don't have "cold feet". For me this change is exciting and wonderful. I"m facing the future with nothing but optimism and a smile on my face.
Back in July, when I was first separated from my ex I couldn't have imagined being totally in love and engaged to the woman of my dreams just a few months later. Isn't change wonderful?
Thursday, April 28, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Why She is Amazing.
I so often tell her that she is amazing. When I tell others about her in my excitement I often use that phrase to describe her. However, I have never really told her why she is amazing.
So here goes...
1. She is more concerned with my happiness than hers. Her selflessness is so truly inspiring and refreshing.
2. She doesn't know that she is beautiful. She takes my breath away! Sometimes I find myself just getting lost in her lovely face. Her hazel eyes never fail to captivate me as they shift between blue and green.
3. She is an incredible mom, who has been doing the job of two parents for the last four years. Those kids have never lacked for love, nurture, or any material thing. They are truly lucky to have her as their mother.
4. She does not see my imperfections. I am a deeply flawed man, but she does not acknowledge that. She completely overlooks the fact that I don't deserve her.
5. My love is so great to be around, she is encouraging, affectionate, and fun. When she is gone, it is like there is such a void in my life. Where has the sunshine gone?
6. She is a true Christian woman. She loves Christ and the things of God. Yet, she does not judge those who do not. In her way she is more Christlike than most Christians that I know.
7. She is so smart! I have two master's degree and she makes me look like an Neanderthal. She is my goddess.
8. My love is so wonderfully expressive! Just read her blogs and you will see that see has a very special gift for penning her thoughts and feelings. I have encouraged her to write more.
9. She is a great listener. I have teased her about being a therapist because I have poured my heart out to her so many times (I am so glad she does not charge)! She was first my friend before she became my love.
10. She is everything that I need, want, and desire. She is just the one for me.
I love you Amanda!
-Jamey
So here goes...
1. She is more concerned with my happiness than hers. Her selflessness is so truly inspiring and refreshing.
2. She doesn't know that she is beautiful. She takes my breath away! Sometimes I find myself just getting lost in her lovely face. Her hazel eyes never fail to captivate me as they shift between blue and green.
3. She is an incredible mom, who has been doing the job of two parents for the last four years. Those kids have never lacked for love, nurture, or any material thing. They are truly lucky to have her as their mother.
4. She does not see my imperfections. I am a deeply flawed man, but she does not acknowledge that. She completely overlooks the fact that I don't deserve her.
5. My love is so great to be around, she is encouraging, affectionate, and fun. When she is gone, it is like there is such a void in my life. Where has the sunshine gone?
6. She is a true Christian woman. She loves Christ and the things of God. Yet, she does not judge those who do not. In her way she is more Christlike than most Christians that I know.
7. She is so smart! I have two master's degree and she makes me look like an Neanderthal. She is my goddess.
8. My love is so wonderfully expressive! Just read her blogs and you will see that see has a very special gift for penning her thoughts and feelings. I have encouraged her to write more.
9. She is a great listener. I have teased her about being a therapist because I have poured my heart out to her so many times (I am so glad she does not charge)! She was first my friend before she became my love.
10. She is everything that I need, want, and desire. She is just the one for me.
I love you Amanda!
-Jamey
Thursday, April 7, 2011
We Belong Together
My Amanda,
I have never considered myself a romantic. Honestly, there was times when I doubted true love existed. I truly believed that I could be happy alone. Tbat was until you came back into my life and turned my world upside down.
Amanda, I have never met anyone like you. You have changed me for the best. You have made me a believer in love...
How did you do this? Just by being you; wonderful, amazing, beautiful Amanda! I have never met someone who compliments me so...perfectly/completely. I told you earlier tonight that when I look in your eyes I believe in fate. How else could we explain what we have? Our connection is too profound to be an accident. You truly are the missing piece of the puzzle of my life. I could never be happy alone; without you.
Thank you for coming back into my life! I love you!
-Jamey
I have never considered myself a romantic. Honestly, there was times when I doubted true love existed. I truly believed that I could be happy alone. Tbat was until you came back into my life and turned my world upside down.
Amanda, I have never met anyone like you. You have changed me for the best. You have made me a believer in love...
How did you do this? Just by being you; wonderful, amazing, beautiful Amanda! I have never met someone who compliments me so...perfectly/completely. I told you earlier tonight that when I look in your eyes I believe in fate. How else could we explain what we have? Our connection is too profound to be an accident. You truly are the missing piece of the puzzle of my life. I could never be happy alone; without you.
Thank you for coming back into my life! I love you!
-Jamey
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