The Blessing of Change

Change. To many it is an scary term, filled with uncertainty. Change reminds us that our lives are muteable, unpredictible, ever progressing in ways that we can't always control.  Change puts us in our place so to speak. It is a reminder that we don't always get what we expect or deserve out of life.

Recently my life has changed a lot. I have blogged about it before, so I won't bore you with the mundane details. To be honest, I had been scared about the future. What had become of my life? Surely I wasn't meant for this? Fears, doubts, uncertainty led to a lethargic form of depression. I felt like a miserable failure because my life seemed so out of control; I was nowhere I wanted to be in life.

 But even change can change...I was lost but I came to find where I needed and wanted to be; with her. My beautiful, sweet, loving Amanda. Her love has removed my fears, doubts, and uncertainties. You see, change brought to me what I neither expected nor deserved, it brought to me a love so wonderful that I can scarce believe it is real.

My life is soon going to change even further as Amanda and I become man and wife. Talk about change! New home, new family, new job, new town etc. Despite all of this prospective change looming over me I am not facing it in fear and uncertainty. I don't have "cold feet". For me this change is exciting and wonderful. I"m facing the future with nothing but optimism and a smile on my face.

Back in July, when I was first separated from my ex I couldn't have imagined being totally in love and engaged to the woman of my dreams just a few months later. Isn't change wonderful?