I think when we go through so much misery, we get used to it. We expect it, we plan for it, we glumily wake up everyday and clothe ourselves in pessimism. We look at life as nothing but a series of injuries and insults. A day is to be endured; not enjoyed. We become blind and deaf to the goodness around us. Even our outlook for the future is completely cloudy. In others words we become jaded.
I reached a point not that long ago when I stopped believing in the higher virtues. I believed that God possessed them, but surely there was no trace of them here on earth. Where is joy? Where is peace? Where is faith? Where is Love? Human relationships are so tainted by selfishness that any trace of love or happiness is nothing but an illusion, a show, a fraud. Surely they are nowhere to be found here on this dismal mudball.
But then God looked down on my morbid state and shook his head...
He decided that he would give me undeniable proof that there is love and happiness in the world. Proof so incredible and powerful that even my blinded eyes would be forced open. Something so wonderful it would dispel my cloud of despair. Something so different, magical, and beautiful that it could only have come from him.
Thank you Lord for showing me my error, thank you for my ray of hope!
:)God is amazing.
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