Have you ever just needed to say something? Has the things left unsaid ever made you sad? It did me. There has been something on my heart lately that has been straining to come out! Everytime that I saw or talked to a certain person it was like trying to hold back a flood with nothing but my own hands. And everytime that I managed to restrain my tongue from uttering what was on my heart I felt no since of victory, only a sadness that something important had been left undone.
You see I was afraid...
I was afraid to express myself because I knew it would change things forever; words are powerful and they shape our lives for better or worse. Words do two things: bind together or separate. Words create friends and enemies in equal measure. Words have a very scary way of bringing unpredictible results.I was afraid it was not the right time. Do we ever know when it is the right time for anything? Lets just wait for some future event then I will say what needs to be said.
These were my fears and they were stopping me from saying some very important words. They made me seal my lips and swallow back what my heart was demanding to be expressed.
Notice the word were...I am so glad I can use the past tense here. Today was different, today Jamey did not leave things unsaid! :)
“One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter.”
ReplyDeleteJames Earl Jones