Destructive Doubt

"There is nothing more dreadful than the habit of doubt. Doubt separates people. It is a poison that disintegrates friendships and breaks up pleasant relations. It is a thorn that irritates and hurts; it is a sword that kills."
Buddha

I like to study the teachings of Buddha. Despite their obvious differences, they are quite harmonious with those of Christ. I especially find Buddhist philosophy on the mind to be both true and enlightened. When it comes to negative emotions such as doubt does his words really take on a profound truthfulness.

Today I doubted, I questioned, I feared something that I KNOW to be true. And I suffered for it. Doubt is the most anguishing feeling in the world, it gnaws at you and the fear it causes paralyzes your heart. I hate it. I felt that sword that Buddha talked about.

My love was so right in her blog about doubt. I am madly, hopelessly in love with her, and I know that she loves me, she has never given me a logical reason not to believe her. Quite the contrary, she has given me reasons daily to trust in her love. She defines love for me, she is my Venus, my Aphrodite.Yet, all it took was a little miscommunication for me to start worrying. How weak is our trust? How flimsy is our faith?

Forgive me, I am so like Thomas; a waverer, a doubter, a fool.